My heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains
My sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk,
Or emptied some dull opiate to the drains
One minute past, and Lethe-wards had sunk:
...
Who, if I cried out, would hear me among the angels'
hierarchies? and even if one of them suddenly
pressed me against his heart, I would perish
in the embrace of his stronger existence.
...
My pen is poised, what shall I write,
The mind is 'dark', it needs some light,
Some 'inspiration' would be enough
To trigger the fingers and do a rough
...
Who, if I cried out, would hear me among the angels'
hierarchies? and even if one of them suddenly
pressed me against his heart, I would perish
in the embrace of his stronger existence.
...
Why there are some people who could hear you a thousand words and still not understand you? ...
A big question that blows my mind.
How can you think without thinking?
Feeling without feeling,
...
I was lost in numbness for years
I was running from pain
but then I became trapped in the freezing darkness
where I was constantly numb
...
Just the day,
comes,
with an iron will,
the way to conquer the passions,
...
This numbness I have from the winter
Lock the coldness on my skin
To be felt and to forget the warm
As if fire never exist
...
lost in numbness for years
running from pain
trapped in the freezing darkness
constantly numb
...
Discontented heart and a restless soul,
unaware i was of my goals.
Alcohol, cocaine, hashish and grass
...
I sat on the dentist’s chair
With an aching tooth, feeling hell
The dentist seemed quite pleased
As he opened my mouth and surveyed
...
Silence knocks the door of the night
Wave of coldness felt, cannot hide
Solitude blew frozen kiss, desire for love inside
Be strong my heart, to carry love inside
...
She sat alway thro' the long day
Spinning the weary thread away;
And ever said in undertone:
'Come, that I be no more alone.'
...
I.
Oh Venice! Venice! when thy marble walls
Are level with the waters, there shall be
A cry of nations o'er thy sunken halls,
...
forever young in my heart and always numb in my brain
im always wearing youth on my sleeve
hoping 1 day i can get this numbness and strain to leave
as never ending passion burns throughout my soul
...
It is an unholy appetite-
A desire, some say,
Born of Satan himself.
The Roaring Lion,
...
(Rhyme Royal Or Rime Royale - 9)
Then, many times I have passed this area
Many times I have smelled yellow flowers
...
Coldness of winter
And your silence
Both sting the skin of my solitude
...
There is nothing left
It has all been stripped away
All except for my tears
And the memories that you've left me
...
did they really think they could just take it all away
with just one word
did they think I would not fight
do they really think I gave a shit what they thought?
...
The beating of the guns grows louder.
'Not long, boys, now.'
My heart burns whiter, fearfuller, prouder;
...
IN companies or lone
They bend their heads, their hands
They busy with their gear,
Accomplishing the stitch
...
In his dim chapel day by day
The organist was wont to play,
And please himself with fluted reveries;
And all the spirit's joy and strife,
...
all my life I lived in grey and black, blue and red.
black was depression
gray was numbness
blue was sadness
...
Counting the weeks to pass as the moon replaces the sun,
Until the new outweighs the old, emotion weighs a ton.
I kept the pain in silence; I kept the promise like an oath.
From flesh to flesh and bones to bones, the numbness is an outgrowth.
...
Do you remember, O Delphic Apollo,
The sunset hour by the river, when Mickey M'Grew
Cried, "There's a ghost," and I, "It's Delphic Apollo";
And the son of the banker derided us, saying, "It's light
...
I
The Swallows sang
ALIEN to us are
Your fields, and your cotes, and your glebes;
...
Ripped apart
Pulled away
Dragged into numbness
The end of the world she has always known
...
Thrashing waves pounding against the rocks, the sound of distant
seagulls screaching from afar, all seem to know the time is near
Distantly the amber glow of a lonely lighthouse seems to be
...
Darkness, will it pass as night?
pain and numbness mingle now,
dreams are numbered, out of order,
sweat upon his furrowed brow.
...
Tiny pills and liquid bottles with stickers of drowsy eyes.
Fill my mouth/throat tightens as the bulge of narcotics move
scratchingly down my throat.
i lay there naked on the cold floor.
...
Alone, the morning glories bloom,
And wither in a single day.
Together, their tendrils strive and stretch
In flowering spirals
...
No farmer, no land, no agricultural arrangements
No growing of vegetables, fish, meat, fruit and food
But in time I am supplied time out some of those
Produced by far rural peasant in their lands;
...
I feel as though, there's a numbness in my head,
But I'm not dead,
My brain is fighting through thick clouds of fluff,
Indistinguishable stuff,
...
As I start to feel lonely again,
I reach for an old friend.
A friend of shiny steel,
With a razors edge.
...
you sleep next to me every night,
yet you've never heard me weep..
you lie with me in the warmth of my bed,
yet you've never felt the heat..
...
Tears streaked down my cheek
Soaking my lifeless face
A numb sensation
Pierce through my heart
...
At least once a day, the thought that I want to die will enter through a worm hole in my brain.
The pain in my toes is relayed to my central nervous center through the numbness of my feet.
The fact that I can't chew a piece of steak or speak without gluing in my front teeth provides only the meekest of smiles to greet the new dawn.
Then there are the two tumors on my head that tick like a quality timepiece with only one hand working and all the while it has been me and not them, wearing the suicide vest set to explode should anyone who loves me try and dial my death on a cheap cell phone by asking if there is a doctor in the house.
...
In a breezy evening
I cruise my boat on a calm sea,
above me remains the star-studded sky,
darkness spells all around and
...
We're thrown hard into a world
that we know nothing about.
We're born small, weak, and speechless,
troubled with our thoughts of doubt!
...
Never Again...
I've come to believe my soul's on the other side
Feeling like I'm on a constant rollar coaster ride.
Breathing heavily and skin flushed
...
For you tonight I pen
The saddest poem I ever wrote
With feelings for you remote
My cries muffled by pillow of ego
...
The Vietnam classic
was a seventy-year-old child,
with the face of a tired, wise turtle.
Not from his own extraordinary fame
...
Dark midnight clouds cover the light
In the distance the way seems so black
Motionless but yet continuing
The spring of time has fallen
...
Does wrath behave a Muslim?
Should you display anger, you'll
Jeopardise your purpose.
...
Women bleed while
men eat ice cream...
and other things
to get over someone...
...
Sometimes we just be there
In a place where hundreds people are still around
But we feel alone
Trying to understand but we dont
...
The only acceptable killers
which are not criminals
are the pain-killers-
liquid, powdered, tablet forms
...
She heard the children playing in the sun,
And through her window saw the white-stemmed trees
Sway like a film of silver in the breeze
...
My past is bleeding with hurt and hardship,
I'm like a slave to memories of wounds from the whip
Of cruel destiny, of harsh words from the lips,
Of my twisted enemies that drip
...
Thou art with me or I am in
Thy being rooted from millions of ages,
beyond the first great sentence.
The space within space, love within love,
...
I know, you've got scars that can be seen with an open eye,
and yet, when I look at your long curls like stalactites, I wonder
why don't you tell me more, I know for sure, you'll have fun seeing my relatives,
hope the numbness in your right hand is gone,
...
The serpent has mingled with my blood
As she devours me, I become her lover
...
Depression made me sad
angry made me mad
these pills have made me numb
I have lost all emotions
...
As I was taking a shower today,
a story came to me,
about how I could become Spider Prey,
and nevermore be free.
...
I.
BEYOND his silent vault green springs went by,
The river flashed along its open way,
...
'AND when came I to this town?' did he say!
A question asked for the asking's sake,
...
'I might be dead' she said
'or just maybe not fully alive
I hate this in-between state.'
.
...
From darkened depths voices call
demons watch as this angel falls
My heart pours out all that it holds
Numbness takes over, my body goes cold
...
Reformation of mud is on
That mend there as a lonely cave
Zone was gloomy dale of wish
Swift of fear was there in tune
...
Have you ever heard in your mind
the sounds that silence makes
the silence that spreads like music
as in splendor a dewy morning breaks
...
I feel dead inside,
Feeling my body shaking,
Feeling the numbness,
Watching my tears fall down,
...
Left out without the pain,
Numbness in my heart regained;
Lifeless is the breath I take;
Unnecessary life I make.
...
Where there was pain
There is only numbness now
You had written pages
But there is only blankness now
...
Not a day passes by, not thinking about you,
believing in my love, which I know is true.
Waiting for you, to come back,
with a lot of hopes, but no regrets, which I lack.
...
Heard you died in the news
I read of your death in the paper
I saw you die of stab wound
I heard you were strangled
...
A hasty wind passed by
Fall few leaves on grassy yard
Blow that takes to the frenzy yard
Wrinkled part that tease sometimes
...
Spring lures with its hues
with its blossoms
with its greenness
all in abundance
...
I hope that it is mist, but they say mist clears,
I hope it is smoke, but they say it fades of
I hope its it is a drug, but they say it wears off
I hope its night, but they say a day always succeds it
...
Life moves on greasy lane
Each turns a new shift
Narrow lane that protract itself
To the vagueness that is mystic
...
A sizzling wind passed by
Seems to be in a hurry of time
Voyage that turns its form
Spontaneous way that formed itself
...
He sat on a granite stone
In the plantain grove
Motionless, unaware
Of the passage of time
...
Early Sunday morning, my leg had pain
Mixed with numbness and was swollen and red.
"Better get to the emergency room, "
Our daughter, who's a registered nurse, said.
...
I saw them fly high. Red, green, turquoise and in a rarest blend of living colours.
As a kid they were my best companions. I used to talk to them. They did answer too. Wordless conversations that grew stronger with the breeze.
...
I am a mess
And I honestly do not expect any less
The day you left
Was the day I felt
...
When I was immersed in evening prayers
Lighting the lamp and inscence
Uttering a few words that
God let all souls rest in peace
...
-My little unborn Joy -
(A Dream)
In the limber air did I listen
...
My heart wants to be whole
And beating its way through the dark
But my heart doesnt always get what it wants..
My heart wants you cuz ur my everything
...
I.
The red day sank as the Sergeant rode
Through the woods grown dim and brown,
One farewell flush on his carbine glowed,
And the veil of the dusk drew down.
...
I know not why it happened?
Writing poems were my passion...
is it my joy and sorrow I shared with passion?
Is it I kept myself engaged with passion?
...
Three years!
Three years! !
From beginning to 'all is well'
One wayward body cell
...
This past two weeks,
Being poked, prodded,
And at times electrocuted
- to determine was going on with me
...
I like noise of my choice,
the lullaby of my mother's voice,
the chirping of birds as they rejoice,
the stamping of the candidates in poise,
...
Sandy Star and Willie Gee,
Count 'em two, you make 'em three:
Pluck the man and boy apart
And you'll see into my heart.
...
"It's my shout this time, boys, so come along and
breast the bar,
And kindly mention what you're going to take;
I don't feel extra thirsty, so I'll sample that
...
Huckle Buckle and a tramp in the trammel
Colorful counters
Here-there, to and fro wherever I gaze
Simply superb, twinkling corners
...
Sinking in a sea of pain and hurt,
My inner demon, my darker half,
Taunting me with my own emotions,
This heart can endure no more pain,
...
i cant name that pain
when i see a human foraging food
beneath a large hoarding of a restaurant
...
shaking hands
so scared of whats happening
sick to the stomach
excruciating pain
...
It's sparkling inside as part of life
Lazy shadows are in queue
Liveliness is pursuing
To cherish the gloomy life on earth
...
Rivers and rivers
of purple pain
spring
from hearts bruised
...
I'm drifting in an unreal world,
I cannot accept it's real,
My life's changing in many ways,
I don't know how I feel.
...
Redemption
In thy infiniteness is my absolute rest,
my being, reposing in thy silence.
...
The thoughts creep in my mind
like a cancer eating away my insides
hope lost forever
the darkness now taking over
...
The stars in my eyes,
They reflect the one man who gave me love.
The taste of my lips,
Lingers of your sweet delicious lips.
...
My heart askew and my brain out of place
I narrowly escape insanity on a daily basis
fuzzy clouds of sorrow and regret
that I lay my head on each night
...